If you were a fan, or are still intrigued, you can learn more from this telling and very compelling interview on The Sword ( NSFW!). Rhodes joked often about the likelihood of his dying young, and he took hedonism and body fascism, admittedly, to the extreme. I think regardless of how strong minded you are, you’ll always hear those people in the back of your head its how you react that should be your personal concern if someone insults you and you choose to throw yourself off a bridge, well, then i think you’ve taken it to far, but if somewhere in the mix you learn a life lesson and it somehow betters you then maybe you should listen listen and learn I see the underbelly of the world while most the of the world floats in the clouds. In response to one such critic on his current blog, he wrote: I understand myself really well and i understand people.
All of it felt at times like an art project, a critique of gay male norms and body image issues, in which he, himself, was the medium and the subject. He tried to make people understand his dark sense of humor, his nihilism, and how the persona of 'Erik Rhodes' contrasted with his actual self. Most interestingly, he was always glad to take criticism from "fans" and have public dialogues about his faults in the comments on his blogs.
He wrote about his life as a porn star and prostitute on various blogs over the years, never sparing the nakedly honest, articulate details of his depressions, his abuse of party drugs like GHB and meth (link NSFW), and the ups and downs of his relationships, including one with a boyfriend of four years which ended earlier this year. Since then, he starred in numerous films, and became one of the only name-brand stars in an industry increasingly faltering amidst the explosion of piracy and amateur cam sites. Rhodes was from Long Island and his porn career began eight years ago (a veritable lifetime in gay porn) in a film called Flesh from S.F.'s Studio 2000, and continued shorly thereafter when he signed an exclusive contract with Falcon, appearing in 2004's Super Soaked. So, that may be a clue as to what did him in. Or my liver to fails which ever comes first. With 5iu of Human Growth Hormone everyday. any suggestion for a gear? i want to be as huge as you," Rhodes responded: My cycle right nowģ000 mg of Test Enanthate a week, 2500 mg of Nandrolone Decaonate and 300 mg of Trenbolone Acetate. In his last post on his Tumblr blog, in response to a reader who said, "am about to start a roid cycle. Say what you will to blame the guy for destroying himself at a young age, but never has there been a porn star who has done it so publicly and honestly, blogging about his failings, fun, and career throughout the internet age. Rhodes was also known as a proud, or at least very open and self-deprecating, user of steroids and various drugs. Rhodes was known as one of the last "Falcon Classics," referring to the San Francisco-based studio known for creating icons in gay adult cinema, dating back to their pioneering days in the early 1970s. He died in his sleep, reportedly, at home in New York around 5:30 a.m. The gay porn community lost one of its last true "stars" early this morning with the passing of Erik Rhodes, a.k.a.